hey. so i've quit facebook for a week.
shock horror i know. but i need to not fail uni. at the moment i'm bi-polar as.
i keep having contradicting thoughts.
like one moment;
i just want to fail everything. just to see what it would be like. and i don't see a reason in continuing education when i know i'd prefer to learn life's lessons through practice rather than in a lecture. and i go to a lecture and they tell me that a persons personality is based on their childhood. and i think, "yeah well, that's all well and good freud but is that a story i want to tell? is that really going to matter? wouldn't it be more interesting to meet a man in vegas whose parents were clowns rather than analyse how this will affect his life?"
and then i think;
well hang on. imagine how amazing it would be to recieve high distinctions in everything. and go on exchange. and do masters and then a phd and then a thesis. and be so well educated that people actually want to hear me rant about everything. and when i have those thoughts, i actually take notes in lectures.

i don't know if you can imagine what it's like in my head.
but it's pretty effed up.

i'm going to start up my own cafe.
sincerely.
it'll be this cute little place in some alley somewhere
that has old chairs and couches everywhere. and white walls with quotes and lyrics all over it.
and a big bookcase, that has all these brilliant books in it. and short stories and magazines.
and it will have brilliant lattes. and won't serve decaf at all.
when you go into the bathrooms, the mirrors will have moustaches on them
and we will serve really, really good breakfasts.
it'll be the most amazing thing ever.
and i can't wait. i want to do it now.
i want to quit uni and work seven days a week and save up to start it.
because it'll be the greatest thing in my life.
sincerely.

oh darling.

the internet is bizarre.
like, i found this girl on there. and she's like me.
no joke. her names ruth and i've only met her once. and it was the most perfect meeting.

just randomly, at a night market. and it wasn't awkward at all.
i found her on myspace somehow and we started talking and realised that we were both amazing.
and she loves the beatles AND high school musical and isn't even that ashamed. i'm not that ashamed either. i used to take my high school musical mug to school everyday.
and it turns out, she's currently going to uni with a mate of mine from ye olde colac.
anyway. this is all over this place.
but we spoke on myspace about how we were going to meet and we were like "yeah, i hope it's somewhere completely random" and it was. i didn't even know she lived in melbourne then.
bizarro or what?
she's my first official blog follower.
and i like her heaps.

i really, really, really like breakfast.
i kind of wish i was back in lorne though.
when after a night of fun, we relaxed with avocado and for once in my life i loved fresh tomato.
but yeah. breakfast is amazing. i'm pretty good at making it too.
this one time, i wanted to make the best scrambled eggs ever.
so i tried a recipe from a bill granger cook book and it was so good that i made it for an food assignment at school. it recieved an A.
then mum met him, and told him. and i got his autograph.
it was one of the greatest pieces of paper i'll ever recieve in my life.
i'm such a foodie nerd.

hello.
well. um. this is awkward.
starting a blog is kind of like going to a party and not knowing anyone there.
yeah, you'll have one friend, but they have their friends on the other side of the room and you don't want to feel like a loser and walk around by yourself. so the choice is, do you stay put and hope the party pies come near you? or do you venture out and try to make some friends, crack a joke or two?
personally, i'm going to try to make some friends.

so hi. i'm haylee. i'm eighteen and i like to write.
mostly about me. more often than not, i am my own favourite topic.
first impression = conceited.

it's just the thing i know most about.
i really enjoy black and white photos and seeing buskers on my way to the train station.
i'm severely disappointed by the lack of ice break in footscray.
i prefer to type in lowercase unless i'm excited.
i dress kind of funny sometimes. i'm not consistent at all.
when people annoy me, i threaten to throw a coffee machine in their face.
i'm allergic to hair dye and make up. and good times make me sneeze.
i like to dye an assortment of things: tee shirts, dresses, my bath.
and i'm only a little bit heaps addicted to coffee and magazines.

that's a little about me. i hope we can be friends.
until then, i'm off to scout out for some cupcakes.
xo haylee.